Concerns on Home School Australia

I KNOW THIS IS A LOT BUT PLEASE READ!!!! (WHOLE LIFE STORY)
So whats wrong with my boring, pathetic, useless life’ Well: I’m the only child, my mom is 58, Im 13, my dad died on christmas day, I barely have any friends and the ones I do have just wanna sit on my computer all day (I honestly think they are my friends only because I have a 27″ iMac), I live in a piece of crap neighborhood full of elders and mean people, our houses are connected so I don’t have a yard, I’ve never had a dog, I’m on the computer every ******* moment of my god damn life, I’ve NEVER in my whole life been invited to my friends, I’ve been home schooled most of my life (so the friends I have Im stuck with till I join school next year), but the school is a high class christian school that gives out 2 hours of ******* homework every god damn night, I’m always the one inviting my friends over, Nobody ever calls, texts me and I deleted my Facebook because I only had 32 friends on there that never talked to me so I though “well what is the point anyways”.

My life is pretty much bs right now. My schedule is (not exaggerating one bit) Wake up, sit at my computer and do the homework mommy gave me, make lunch, finish work, sit at the computer till 8:00, take a shower, watch pornography, clean up, sit at the computer some more, go to bed.

Then on the weekend Ill be so bored that Ill have my “friend” come over that comes over to get on my computer and we can’t share it so we are always fussing about who uses the computer.

I want to be social but Im awkward as **** in public. I go to a youth group but I haven’t made any friends for the 2 years I’ve been there. So don’t suggest a hobby to me because I already have one and Im bored of sitting inside my ****** house sketching as a hobby. I want to go out and have stories to tell. If I turned 80 right now and had grandchildren my life story to them when I was an adolescent would be “Yup kids, ol’ grandpa here use to spend 12 hours of his day on Y!A posting depression questions! doesn’t that sound fun’”

Another reason why I deleted my Facebook other than not having many friends was because it was giving me depression my friends would always post things like “Going to the beach with my friends!” -”Going down to australia for the weekend!”-”Built a treehouse with my dad”. So I think you can see how pathetic my life is. I may have a nice computer and a fancy mural on my wall but that can’t make up for my pathetic social life and boring days that pass by so freaking fast.

Please help me. Im really sad..
Trust me.. with this crappy life I have I’d rather be in africa at least those kids are outdoors and live in communities with other kids I’d rather die a adventurous life and shot than live a long boring life.
I DONT CARE ABOUT GOD DAMN KIDS IN AFRICA!!!!!!!
Im not ******** stupid I know there are other kids with starving, and disease problems. I DONT F’ING CARE!!!!! MY BS LIFE IS FULL OF COMPUTER 0s AND 1s WHO WANTS MY GOD DAMN LIFE!’!'!’

NO ONE!!!!! SO SHUT THE HELL UP!!!!!!!
AND EVEN THO I HAVE A FANCY COMPUTER AND IM GOING TO A PRIVATE SCHOOL DOESN’T MEAN WE ARE RICH. WE ARE POOR AS HELL RIGHT NOW!!!!