Concerns on Home School Online

I have had a crush since I was 10.M****m S***kh.
Now, I’ve been madly attracted, I’ve broken TWO laptops (one acer,and one HP Dv6), and this is over a period of four weeks.My room that I just got upstairs, now has a closet filled with shattered glass, that is glasses which I bring with redbull or coke upstairs, to drink, when I think about what I’ve done, I throw the glass somewhere, it shatters, I now have this little brush and plate in my room, which I use to move the glass to this part of a cupboard,(a drawer)……and I broke two speakers of my home theater system that I got with my TV as my dad’s gift.
Now, I keep making stories as to how this laptop broke, how this speaker broke, how this glass was shattered…..but how long can that last’
I’ve seriously gone a little insane.I really think I had gone insane for a period.
I have not been able to eat for 5 hours, I feel hungry but vomit at the sight of food.I’ve had to stop a thing with Amna……another girl.
So, the answer I need is what the frick am I to do’While I was writing this, I just broke a perfume bottle.It was never this bad when I was in school with her.Now I’m out, in the process or being transferred, I had done so many things to ‘impress’, I brought and airsoft gun to school, I hacked a GQ system, and for every 10 school days, 3 of them were me in suspension.
And what the frick do I get after that’ Being withdrawn to avoid being kicked out of one of the highest,most prestegious private schools in Pakistan’ (You can even say South Asia).
I’ve deliberately drifted my dad’s BMW right outside a place where she frequently has coffee or so, and she never noticed.Mind you, one tyre costs $700(70,000 local PKR) atleast. And PS: I’m not even 15 or 14….
So, now what’My head is aching, I now spend atleast 3 hours on this small home gym machine I bought.My taste in music,movies, EVERYTHING has changed.I drank a whole bottle of Sminroff over 1 week (last week).I convinced my dad to go with me to Karachi, I went to Karachi, to get a hold of a 1920′s RR this Mohsin man had, just so I could post pictures of it on FB while she is online.
I’ve done that with a 1936 Merc.
I’ve tried all the damn options there,the only thing I havent done is suicicide. But you cant say I didnt consider it.
I used to like Pitbull, Enrique.Now I listen to Nickelback, and a very selected range of dubstep.I used to take lots of interest in my dad’s business, cars etc..but now I dont even remember where the HQ is located.
I have a small cut on my upper right eye, which was when I was facing a wall, threw a glass at it, and a part hit my eye, thankfully not the ‘eye’ball”.My dads usualy in another city, looking after a corporation that he and my uncle own. I can really see myself on a short fast road to death.
It’s just so fricking frustrating …………………..
DAMMIT.
HELP ME PLEASE I BEG YOU ADVISE ME
No I’m not a ‘troll’.What the hell is one anyway’