Concerns on Internet Home School

The first problem I’m going to say will make you hate me so i’ll save it to the second one so you can see i do have a heart.

My bestfriends uncle had been very ill with cancer for a year and he was in a great deal of pain, for her family he could have been her dad they were that close. He passed away on the 10th of March this year.

She has been really down lately, she doesn’t really smile or laugh as much now. She gets so stressed easily and she is tired. She told me that in school she seems fine but when she gets home she sits on her bed and just cries. She doesn’t sleep well either.

I think she could be depressed and I don’t know what to do. She is beautiful and she doesn’t know it and she believes she is fat but she is really thin. She eats well so shes not anorexic. I know she was bullied last year. Before she does anything hasty not that she is that bad but, just incase.. I need help! What can I do to help her and make her talk to me, because she doesn’t talk about her feelings much.

Secondly,
now i am going to sound like a horrible person, trust me, i hate me for it too. This girl started pretty much stalking me and my friends, she seemed nice and we were friends with her, but then it got extreme. She started asking my friend about her boyfriend, what he looks like and stuff. Even though she wasn’t friends with him on facebook she would come into school delighted that he changed his profile picture or put up a new status’

I wanted her to leave me alone, she started eating with us too and it really bothered four out of six of us in my group of friends, the one with the boyfriend loved the attention this girl gave her and stuck with her. We started moving to smaller tables so there would be no room for her but she would still sit right behind us. Oh God, come to think of it I sound like such a bitch! Anyways after a while she still hadn’t got the idea so we started make i more obvious answering her questions with yes or no. Being really plain with her, almost ignoring her.. Then the girl with the boyfriend who is one of my bestfriends got mad at us for treating her like that and went off with her and that got me mad because it felt like she had stolen my bestfriend..

That night on facebook I did the “like for a letter status”. Usually I would skip “Dear girl i hate” but i was feeling really angry and rote it to the girl. It wasn’t obvious it was her about her but i had a gut feeling she’d know. The only bad things in it were “If you steal my bestfriend away I will put you 10 feet under!” but i am a skinny midget with less muscle than a kitten so i knew she wouldnt take it literally!:L, and also “remember, seven is an odd number.” because i was in a group of six:/
anyways she printed it out and gave it to her dad who got the school involved and there was a big thing..

but then i didnt go on the london trip because my family couldnt afford it so she had to share a room with my 2 friends, my bestest friend out of all 5 got really close to her on the trip and she told emma, my bestfriend, that she hates herself and had a date for a day that she would kill herself!
I knew she had had a fight with her bestfriends and the girl she fought with proper abused her on the internet so compared to the stuff that girl said mine was nothing!, but obviously both together really hurt her. I feel so bad and were friends again but im living with horrible regret and guilt.

I know what its like to want to kill yourself and to self harm and to hate yourself, iv had thoughts of suicide a year now, selfharming a year not often though, but iv full on hated myself for years. I don’t want to be the reason that girl feels the way i do because nobody deserves it, bullying has made me feel like this and i bullied a girl and made her feel like this and that kills me it really does. And I don’t want my bestfriend to feel like that either!

Please help, what will i do about my bestfriend, and what will i do about my guilt and all were friends and iv apologised so many times but it still haunts me thought it happened like 6 months ago!