Concerns on Middle School Homeschool

So here’s a little background:
Ever since I was little I haven’t had many friends, in kindergarten I knew everyone, and we were all friends. Then everyone went off into groups in first grade. I hung out with 2 people.. One was a total weirdo (not to be mean but I don’t even know how to describe her:( but she was really nice!) and she ended up moving schools. Then I had my other friend who me and her would fight a lot over just dumb crap, let’s call her Julie. In about 4th grade crap started happening.julie started getting more friends while I would just be alone and I would get mad at Julie for having these people (which I understand now was rude and stupid of me) and so Julie would end up talking about me and crap would start. Then in 5th grade, I was just so miserable in school, no one really liked me, my mom wanted to homeschool me, but the school didn’t want her to take me out before testing, so every recess I would go to the office and sit up their or sharpen pencils for testing..(which was extremely degrading and horrible). Then me and Julie became friends again through 6th grade and we went to a new school for middle school. Half of the year was fine until shit started happening again and we stopped being friends. I had new friends but I thought they didn’t actually like me, (which more then half of them it was true) so I just stopped hanging out with people almost the end of the eighth grade. Now I’m in my freshmen year of highschool. I have new friends now, they’re really nice, and never start drama or talk Crap about anyone. But here’s the problem; I can’t trust anyone. I don’t want to get to close to any of these people in fear of exposing things to them they may have on me later if we aren’t friends anymore. And I don’t want to get too attached for them to just leave me. I also think they’re always lieng, actually, I think almost everyone’s always lieng… It worries me. Even simple stories that would be dumbd to lie bout, I think they’re lieng. I don’t know where this came from but i can never find any truth in anyone. Only lies. I also always think automatically if I see someone whispering, or laughing, that they’re automatically talking about me then I get really red and awkward and sad… It’s just I don’t know what’s going on or why I think everyone’s lieng, I looked up paranoia personality Disorder but I only have like 1 symptom of that. But do I maybe have that’ And if so how should I address my parents about something like this..
And I dont really think anyone’s out to get me, just, I think everyone is lying.. A lot.. About really stupid crap. Although like I said if I see someone snickering or laughing I automatically think its because of me, and I think almost anything that can’t really be proven is probably a lie.